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Monday, December 06, 2004

2:35 PM

[ love is you ]

the yesterdae i cried. so longed nvr cried so badly. sometimes i wonder if u tink i'm crazy. i know i am wierd. i do strange things. i act as if i dun care a damm but i'm bursting inside. small things we dun wanna quarell abt. i tink not impt abt. i tell u now.. eveyr litle thing of urs matters.

supposingly it was to be a great day bcos' it is xmax. a festival of Joy , love and Giving. i'm suppose to give u lots of love. but.. i'm sorrie for being so harsh and violent. my temper has been bad u know it. u know me. if u kept silence it aint gonna make me feel good either. that day sunday was my first meeting with kelly's bf Glenn and we're suppose to go on some snap shots at orchard. i had a little quarell with yang and i know he doesnt know hell wat he did wrong. but i alreadi upset till wan burst out crying but i very good at tolerating i dun wan shed tears like this! upon reachin his home, surprised to see his parents i greet them unlike my cheerful voice. waited for him to change n set off again.he never combed or spiked his hair - wore a shirt that nvr ironed. face black like me. enough of it. i feel like laughing now. been cleaning off all my make up since he anyhow casually mentioned how ugly i looked. well..he say he joking. okae watever i'm sensitive hmm.. but anyway in the end i look nice well he... not realli terrible lolx.

things were fine but it got worse..when we try to talk.. at the explandne while kel and glenn were romanticing - me and yang.. i tried to talk but i find it so hard to really talk wat i wanna say in the end i burst out in short temper. we walk the stretch to MerLion and while we sat. i was quiet. finally cried. i feel angry really angry really sad and sad and sad. he hugged me and kissed my tears away trying to make me feel better even though he have no idea how. i was calmming down a little since it got rather late. my platforms were killing me i tink i bleeded.. Yang crazily took off his shoes - surprised i say wat u doing le - just now they dun even let me take off shoes - i dun mind being wierd but.. - well he took off and ask me to take off too. i slipped off my platforms and feel so light now. we walked the whole stretch of city link with everyone lookin at us. i hurt my feet not him - asked why he did that - he said he knew it would make me feel better - he bought a heartshaped cake from bRead talk even though i say i dun wan anythin at all - of cos i eat it bcos; i got hungry =P but wat is more sweet is on the inside of my heart. i guess i was happie. i am happie now.

mY testi for him ::
i'm so sorry yang.. i'm so sorry i throw
my temper at u these days. i'm so sorry
i make u upset. i'm sorry that i did not
control how i feel Really. there's so
much so much i wanna tell u even
though i dun always have the right
words to express my thoughts. i try tellin
u i..tried. maybe not hard enough. i'm
really very touched very very touched
that u..can take off ur shoes and look
silly with me- walk the whole stretch of
city link. dun mind being laughed at just
to make me feel better.n how did u
know it will make me feel better huhx/
and the cake i like alot v surprised very.
my feets killin me like hell. i really
hate..those shoes. =)

and i lURvE You - more n more with
each passing day.....................................

my dearest yang yang and me at takashimaya.. i love u so much..really* very..sweet our love. there's nothing i want more but to have a life with u.

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